"It's still good to have options"
Looks like I'm running again.
But this time, it's not REALLY because I'm scared.
Even though I kind of am.
It's because the clear knowledge of what I want is way too overwhelming to place in the hands of uncertainty.
So I'd rather just try and forget it instead and stick to my list.
But it's been in the back of my mind this long, even as I've been crossing things off.
Something tells me it's going to be there for a while.
I don't think I'm going to be escaping this one any time soon.
And that's just fine with me.